I am seated quietly on a grass mat opposite a quiet man.\u00a0 The small room has African textiles and hangings on the walls.\u00a0 I had arrived at 13.00 and walked through the rather empty house in Clovelly and now sit in silence, waiting until the man looks at me directly after scanning me.\u00a0 I feel he has been looking around me, beyond my physical being and past me, back into the generations who stand lined up behind me.<\/p>\n
Now his gaze returns to the present, with me in the centre of this space sitting on a mat.\u00a0 He has extraordinary eyes, and I find myself being pulled into them, linked with an invisible cord.\u00a0 Only when he glances down to the small leather pouch in his lap is this connection broken, and I sense a release of the magnetism.\u00a0 I am again separate, an individual in a small space with another.\u00a0 Still no words have been spoken as he opens the pouch and allows the contents to spill, apparently randomly, onto the cloth in front of me.<\/p>\n
The objects \u2013 shells, bones and stones of varying shapes, sizes and colors, find their place.\u00a0 They have laid out the diagnosis to be read and shared and provide the basis for our continuing interaction.\u00a0 I have come to this sangoma, <\/em>a couple of days after my 58th birthday with the specific intention and request for help in \u2018cutting the cords\u2019.<\/p>\n Cutting the cords….\u00a0 Cords which seem to keep me attached, energetically, emotionally and vulnerably to my partner and husband whom I last saw 4 months ago, when he drove me to Geneva airport.\u00a0 Two days before he had called to wish me well\u00a0 for my birthday, and I had learnt of his intended visit to Brazil.\u00a0 Following my emotional reaction I had called the sangoma<\/em> and now I was waiting to hear his assessment and the next steps.<\/p>\n I am rather dismayed and a little disappointed when he says – \u2018We first have to work on your mother\u2019.<\/p>\n My mother !\u00a0 My mother died 18 months ago, a few weeks after her 80th birthday.\u00a0 Now we have to work on my mother to enable me to cut the cords with my husband?<\/p>\n This surprising information adds another layer to a remark made earlier the same\u00a0 morning by Senta, an intuitive medical practitioner working with magnetic resonance and energy equipment.\u00a0\u00a0 I\u00a0 had a scheduled appointment with her, and the readings had shown an improvement in my heart, which I linked to the constructive steps I\u2019d taken since my birthday.\u00a0 Then almost casually, she\u2019d said…’There\u2019s something here about your mother and Ronald\u2026’\u00a0 We\u2019d left it at that but now, three hours later, the sangoma<\/em> is also suggesting the importance of this \u2018something\u2019.<\/p>\n It\u2019s not simply a question of cutting cords.\u00a0 There is something deeper, more profound \u2013\u00a0 an energetic illness called sinyama<\/em>.\u00a0 Which I inherited it from my mother and she\u00a0 perhaps inherited from hers.\u00a0\u00a0 I needed to be released from this in order to get on with my life in total freedom.\u00a0 We would start the cleansing process that evening at sunset.\u00a0 I was to wear clothes which would be \u2018worked on\u2019 and discarded.<\/p>\n That night, 9th February 2009, there was a full moon and a lunar eclipse, perfect timing for starting a week-long series of rituals. In my journal entry on the 10th, I wrote:<\/p>\n I<\/em>\u2019ve felt a purification and purging going on today and last night with the full moon, the energy was very profound…. it\u2019s good to be doing this and it will also release mom, as the ancestral healing takes place as I move forward<\/em>. I<\/em>\u2019ve known at a deep level there was <\/em>\u2018something\u2019<\/em> affecting me.\u00a0 I<\/em>\u2019ve been vulnerable for so long.\u00a0 It\u2019s a relief to take this action now.\u00a0 The second session is this evening at 18.00. I<\/em>\u2019ll report back…\u00a0 I<\/em>\u2019m to take a pack of razor blades!<\/em><\/p>\n The second session included another steaming and the cutting of skin on my wrists, ankles, shoulders and three places on my back.\u00a0 Then the s<\/em>angoma <\/em>gave me a little more information about the sinyama<\/em> condition.\u00a0 It can be dormant for a long time, then provoked by deep shock, distress or a powerful negative energy.\u00a0 It may not actually manifest in a lifetime but it is passed on.\u00a0 Not having children, fibroids is a sign of it.<\/p>\n I thought about all this. My fibroids, my hysterectomy six years earlier.\u00a0 I thought about the possible impulses which could have awakened the condition in me in its current form.\u00a0 Deep shock and distress in Bosnia certainly, following closely on the dark negative experiences of my two-year sojourn in Cape Town, when I now knew I had received \u2018curse energy\u2019 (which had been identified and worked on a year before).<\/p>\n Flashbacks…images… tumbling over each other coming to the foreground in my consciousness as I recognised each event, felt each emotion, saw the experience and received the impact in my solar plexus.<\/p>\n According to the sangoma,<\/em> this has had a hold in my pancreas\/liver\/solar plexus area (which accounts for the very, very low readings I\u2018ve had with Senta.)\u00a0 And he says, it can be fatal.\u00a0 As I described in my journal after the second session, which included sealing and protecting rituals:<\/p>\n Its very corrosive, fire-based, eating away and my kidneys trying to balance all the time\u00a0 accounts for the shortage of water (at my annual visits to St Francis Health centre, I<\/em>\u2019m always surprised at the well below normal water content in my body stats).<\/em><\/p>\n The pieces of the puzzle were slowly coming together.\u00a0 The link with ancestral lineage was also a new insight for me.\u00a0 I needed to do this healing also for them.\u00a0 According to the s<\/em>angoma<\/em>, when dead, they are aware but unable to work on things, and\u00a0 can only work through the living.\u00a0 So, this ritual was important.<\/p>\n Before the third session, when we would commence the cutting of the cords, I wrote<\/p>\n Last night was sealing and protecting.\u00a0 And this morning I<\/em>\u2019ll be opened up.<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" My experiences with a Sangoma…healing my ancestral line and cutting emotional ties.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"featured_media":491,"template":"","categories":[10],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-490","episode_posts","type-episode_posts","status-publish","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-part-3-you-yourself-are-the-melody"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/episode_posts\/490","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/episode_posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/episode_posts"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/491"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=490"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=490"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mylisteningheart.org\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=490"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}